We all need a prescription of a fairy-tale once in a while.
We all need to believe that there exists something magical in our reality. That
is, if reality exists without our mind to create it. But it doesn't Reality is
what we perceive of our surroundings. It is when we give meanings to things
that haven’t even happened yet.
It is a blessing to have a tight grip on reality, but sometimes, you need a break from reality. You want to believe in the magical love that sweeps you off your feet and makes you fall head over heels for that special person. To be able to feel that rush, that tingly feeling in your toes and your hands, and feeling butterflies in your stomach. And your name sounds different when they say it. It sounds like the delicacy of a child, the breaking waves of an ocean.
How sad it is to listen to breakup songs before a year it
might happen? How could that love not be more bitter than sweet? Or maybe it
just isn't love at all. Maybe it’s just something we think we need, something
that makes us feel we've let go of the past, something that replaces the
thoughts we don’t want to think. Life isn't magical; love may or may not exist.
If it does exist, it may never make you feel complete. And if it doesn't exist,
there won’t be any questions to ask, no answers to give, no complications to solve,
no confusions to clarify, no hope and no
expectations to be let down.
But how do we live without expecting the better outcome? It’s
scary to not know what’s coming towards us, or what we’re going forward to is unknown,
but what drives us crazy is to know that
there will be no better outcome. How do you live with that? How can you not
want to give up? When you think of giving up, I hope you think that you don’t really
know what will the end be, or even if you’ll live to see it. This is where I tell
myself to just live right now, in the
present and not connect my future with my past and my past with my future,
because I’m not the one to give the verdict of my own life.
